Hillbilly Elegy - Jan 26

One of my parents had already faced a prosecution ________(类似...的) and hardly possessed any ________(行走的自由), while the other was sufficiently ________(与外界隔离) that “summoning” him would require some serious detective work.

But as we had with other challenges, we improvised. Lindsay ________(伪造了妈妈的签名), and the school district stopped sending letters home.

But Mom’s newest problem exposed me to the underworld of American addiction.

We heard screaming and fighting, children telling their parents that they hated them, sobbing parents ________(刚刚还在请求原谅回头又开始指责家人).

How she hated watching me grow attached to some boyfriend of Mom’s only to see him ________(遗弃我们).

She regularly recited the Serenity Prayer, ________(一项毒瘾圈的基本配置品) in which the faithful ask God for the “serenity to accept the things [they] cannot change.”

Research does reveal ________(一种遗传性的性格) to substance abuse, but those who believe their addiction is a disease ________(表现得更难以做某事) to resist it.

I didn’t believe in any of ________(口号和情绪), but I did believe she was trying.

I scrounge together what money I can and spend it on smack.

By the time I finished eighth grade, Mom had been ________(戒毒) for at least a year, and she’d been dating Matt for two or three years.

I remembered life when I didn’t have that ________(安全门/安全阀), and I didn’t want to go back to those days.

So when Mom made her announcement about moving in with Matt, I ________(大声喊道), “Absolutely not,” and ________(愤然离开).

If nothing else, I thought, this woman might give Mom and me an opportunity to ________(把所有的事情都摊开来说).

The therapist chronicled “outbursts” that I’d allegedly had, ________(有些事情能追溯到我还不能记事的年代).

I ________(我开始了将尽一个小时的谈话，总结了我的迄今为止的生活).

During Mom’s domestic violence case a couple of years earlier, Lindsay and I had ________(说漏了嘴) some unsavory details about ________(妈妈的教育), and because it counted as a new revelation of abuse, the family counselor was required to report it to child services.

Mom ________(看待世界的方式存在一个巨大的盲点).

And it epitomized what attracted me to Dad’s home.

instead. I could never tell my dad that I played a nerdy ________(集卡游戏) called Magic, because I feared he’d think the cards were satanic.

She said something about needing to transfer to a Dayton school after my freshman year, but I figured we’d ________(没到桥头，莫先操心) in a year, when we had to.

I made it abundantly clear that I meant to ________(非把我继父的儿子打到差点丧命为止).

In it, the fictional president debates whether he should ________(推动教育券) (giving public money to schoolchildren so that they escape ________(失败的公立学校)) or instead focus exclusively on fixing those same failing schools.

Some days I’d ________(假装生病), and others I’d just refuse to go.

Along with my abysmal school record came drug experimentation—nothing hard, just what alcohol I could ________(能弄到手的) and a stash of weed that Ken’s son and I found.

She had a little house not far from Mamaw’s and ________(好像找到了[生活的]方向).

________(我这一辈子), we had lived under the same roof, but now she lived in Middletown, and I lived with Ken about twenty miles away.